My change story
For many years I struggled with debilitating pelvic pain and it influenced everything in my life. By learning more about what pain is and how our mind works, I have a very different experience of pain now.
I still have a diagnosis and physical limitations, but my relationship with pain has gradually shifted from one based on fear and stress, to one based on curiosity and possibility. By understanding pain and physical symptoms in new ways you can change your experience. You can read more in my article Thoughts on physical pain in my blog, send me a message or reach out for a session to explore what is possible for you.
Me in 2016
Remember that change may be possible even if your mind tells you a different story. Mine did too. It's what minds do.
Me in 2017
Your mind is a storyteller by nature. It brings fluctuations of energy and story together with the sensory information you're taking in, resulting in quite a display. It's a brought-to-life, real-as-can-be experience. It's virtual reality that doesn't seem virtual.
Dr. Amy Johnson (Just A Thought)
I have personal experience with:
Persistent physical pain and other chronic physical symptoms
Panic attacks/panic disorder
Self esteem issues
To walk the path of healing with someone who has been where you are now,
who has struggled the way you do now,
who has suffered the way you do now,
is profoundly different than walking the path with someone who has only read or heard about the kind of struggles you find yourself in. When someone has seen the truth they can be your guide to find yours.
Me in 2020
If you struggle with anxiety I know how you feel. Low level anxiety was my near constant companion for many years from a young age, along with physical pain in various forms. The anxiety increased over the years from low level to all consuming, but I now know that this were the habitual programs run by my brain to protect me from the perceived dangers of the world. I now know that anxiety does not protect me or anyone from anything. What if anxiety is scary thinking and us feeling those thoughts in our bodies? What if it's a habit our mind picked up at some point because it innocently thought there was some kind of protection to be found there? What if habits like that can change by understanding how all minds work?
When you see what anxiety is, it is easier to let your mind talk about scary stuff when it does, without getting into the content of it or trying to explain why it is happening. If you do, it is easy to get lost in the weeds of it. We know what that feels like, but is the solution there? I know our minds would like to tell us they are, but are they really? I don't believe there are any answers in a revved up spinning mind. I believe the answers are to be found in a quieter mind where we can hear our own common sense.
I thought there were actual triggers and actual situations bringing on the anxiety and panic attacks, but are there really? Or is our mind always looking for answers outside of us or in our bodies to pin on uncomfortable feelings? A mind loves to find solutions and answers and present them to us as truth, but is that where truth lies?
When you find yourself in a situation where you start to feel anxious, it is all too easy to believe that your anxiety is telling you something about the situation at hand, but is that true? Or could it be a reflection of what your mind is up to in that moment? We feel this mental activity in our bodies, and we may get more anxious and more scared because we innocently believe these feelings hold valuable information. What if the answer is that your mind is busy, and that it's not a good idea to listen to the content of it? What would happen if you left it alone to do its thing? What if the anxiety or panic will subside on its own, not by ignoring it or accepting it, but by you seeing the truth of what it is and feeling safe enough to let it move through?
Every feeling in our body is energy in some form moving through. If we leave it alone, that is what it will do. If we grab hold of it because we think it is something important or try to get rid of it or fix it, it will stay longer. It is about seeing something fundamental about how we all work as human beings, and in that understanding, a natural shift has the space to happen.
It was while attending Dr. Amy Johnson's six-week course, The Little School of Big Change, that I began to see on a deeper level how we all work as human beings and how we are not what our thinking minds tell us we are. Underneath our thinking, we all have innate mental health and wellbeing. What would it mean to you if this is true?
I understand how it feels to be caught in a loop of pain, anxiety and mental stress. I also know what it feels like to see everything with new eyes, not fearing the emotions showing up and understanding physical pain in a different way. Life is not about not feeling certain feelings, but about feeling everything that wants to show up and move through you, without fear or resistance. When we resist what is, we suffer.
This understanding is life-changing and can change your relationship with yourself, with pain, with mental stress and with the people you love.